My Problem.

Everyone that reads this knows that music is a huge part of who I am. Usually at any point in the day, you could ask me what song I have in my head, and I will probably have an answer. Tonight, at Frank's game, I had a song in my head and couldn't wait to get home to hear it. But the crap thing is, I can't remember which song, and can't find one of the CD's it might be on. The song was from the now defunct band, Tarkio. It's a two CD set called Omnibus, collecting all the EP's and one album they put out. This said compilation was put out by the the label Kill Rock Stars. (Sadly, all that info was from memory. I looked up none of it.)

Anyway, I can't find the first disc of this set, and I'm sure said song that was in my head is on that first disc. I can't even remember what song it was, since it was just two lines that were in my head. I don't even remember the lines. Knowing me, it was probably cleverly written depressing lines.

You don't know how much it's bothering me to not find it. I thought writing a short blog entry would help put it to rest, but it didn't. Guess I'll just go to bed. It is midnight.

Sing me to sleep, second disc of Tarkio: Omnibus.

Week in Review...yeah.

Really quick this week. I remember that I didn't get one in last week either. Perhaps I'll catch up, perhaps I won't.

Nothing too eventful this week. Officially got my promotion at Kingland. But also on a sad note, a friend of mine was let go from Kingland too. Hutch and I had a good time and made each other laugh. But he wouldn't show up a lot for work, or leave early. His quality wasn't the greatest either. Hutch is a good guy, a great guy, but Kingland just wasn't his thing. He will be missed.

Something else this week I realized about myself is that I want to do something creative. I see Charlie (trying) to do Awsomen, or Alter Egos now. I see Gabstur talking about and working on his Mickey and Joe stuff. Hell, even Frank with his GURPS game. I want to create something. I really loved that in college. The things I'd do for audio and video classes, were some of the most fun I've had. I loved sitting around thinking of stuff for Sofa Kings with Chad, and then writing them down. (For those wondering at home, we called it Sofa Kings for a reason. A very clever way of being juvenile. If you can't figure it out, say the next sentence out loud. Rob Dietz is sofa king awesome. ) Thinking up visuals to go with prerecorded PSA's was a lot of fun too. Anyway, I think I'm going to try to start writing things. Just try to build on ideas I have for stories and whatnot. I don't know if I could use them in a role playing setting. I'm too controlling over what would be going on story wise. Role playing should be able to flex with what the characters do. I'd want to tell a story and have happen in it what I want to happen.

Something else I've been working on this week is eye contact. I'm really bad with looking at people when they are talking to me. It's not that I'm nervous around people or whatnot, it's just that I've always been a person that looks around at everything. I'm sure it's wierded some people out as I try to stay focused on them when talking to me, instead of looking around, like I'm disinterested.

Also, to go along with the eye contact thing, I've been trying to be a little more outgoing. Stupid stuff like doing the small talk thing with people I buy my candy bar at the store from. Even just being a little friendlier to people I interact with. I feel that I've gotten into a comfortable rut, and just doing these small things to shake things up a bit.

What the hell, we'll cover last week right now too. It was nice to see Bryan again, and to actually play some board games again. We've played games since he left, but just not as focused as when he's around. I think with Bryan leaving, I've found out that I'm a little picky when it comes to board games or perhaps I'm just not as interested in them as I used to be. Don't get me wrong, I still enjoy playing games. Just not like I did a couple of years ago. Could also just be a phase I'm going through. That happens to me from time to time.

An example of such a phase is that I recently thought about cutting my hair. This happens about once a year, at around this time. This time it was a little more serious and almost happened. It was kind of like the article Carmen wrote about cutting his hair. I felt like I wanted a change. To leave a part of my life and step into something new. I then eventually decided, if I did cut it, I'd probably just let it go long again. I don't feel comfortable with short hair. I don't understand it, but I don't. Everytime I did get my hair cut when I was younger, I felt uncomfortable until it got longish. With curly hair though, when it would get so long, it would look pretty stupid, and so it would get cut. I was finally able to get it this long by being way to busy to find time to get it cut, and it went out of the stupid phase, into being long. Now, it's seven years later.

Someday though, I will probably go through with getting it cut. This time while going through my "should I cut it" phase, I decided when I do get it cut, I'm going to still keep it longish, and go for the messy, not combed look. Like Jeff Tweedy. Not that anyone that reads this knows who that is.

Ok, that's two weeks rolled into one. Happy Mother's Day to all the mothers out there(So...Jennifer).